Submission

After months of denial, entertaining the idea that by some miracle I wouldn't end up having to work night shift at the end of 6 months, I have begun to realize that it's looking like in 2 weeks, it's actually going to happen.  Presbyterian Hospital was being serious in my contract.  They didn't change their minds and decide that maybe I'd be better suited for day shift.  So, considering this revelation, I've gone ahead with my first act of submission to my new lifestyle.  THESE are on their way to my house.  It pained me just a little bit to actually pay money to block the sun out of my life.  Insult to injury, if you will.  In fact ,the first time that I went to order them, I started to feel like I might cry and had to leave.  So I waited, knowing that these take 14 days to deliver, until the very. last. possible. day.  Just in case, you know, Presby changed their minds.

As someone who's far from a night owl, night shift will be an adjustment.  I can honestly say that I do think that I can do it.  And I don't think that I'll hate it.  But nonetheless, since I found out back in January that night shift was in my future, I've had a spirit of timidity about it.  Lucky for me, turns out I know tons of people who know about night shift.  And this is the advice that I've gotten...

"It just takes getting used to".."You're going to HATE it.  You'll have to be away from Sean, and you. will. hate. it."..."save your tears for the first night of night shift because that's gonna SUCK."...."it's much more relaxed at night.  and the people on nights are really nice."...."the worst part is 3-5 am"..."the worst part is looking out the window knowing that everyone is tucked into their warm beds except for you"..."the first week, I felt like I was going to die.  by week 4, I was going to get my car washed."..."the weirdest part is knowing when to eat"..."after you get passed the screwed up body chemistry, it's really not that bad"..."the best part is around 5, when you know that people are getting up, taking their showers, and getting ready to come relieve you"..."you're gonna get SICK"..."there comes a point, sometime around 3-4, when you think that if you can't go home in the next 5 minutes that you're just going to start crying"..."you wanna see a bad mood?  wait 'til 3 am"..."think of all of the MONEY you can make on NIGHT SHIFT!"...and of course everyone has their ideas on how to arrange my life around it, all of which I'm taking into account.

But the Voice of truth,

tells me a different story, 

the Voice of truth,

says 'do not be afraid',

the Voice of truth,

says 'this is for My glory',

And out of all the voices calling out to me

I will choose to listen and believe,

the Voice of truth..